THE VOID LEFT
Enveloped in such a sadness
Trying to break free to see anew
Struggling inside to let go of
Those memories of time spent with you
It seems as if no one can understand
The truest depth of sorrow buried deep
A special bond a devotion of loving care
I have no way to explain the void left there
One more moment in your arms I wish to feel
Giving up everything to just know that comfort
To see the eyes that looked upon mine with such love
To feel my heart soar and open up from so far above
Safe and secure in your presence I felt so content
Playing running laughing under your watchful eye
Life would just go by to play learn and be free
I am trying to find that again deep inside of me
Everything I am and became somehow touches you
And still life goes on and new adventures await
Grateful and devoted to loving half as well I try
So often just making it through so many say goodbye
Fears run deep so much loss so much pain
Yet I wonder so very often from deep inside
Would you be proud of what I became
Would you still love the little girl you left
All I can do is wonder and feel at such depths
Needing to be held so close and loved again
Melting into loving arms so devoted and kind
Knowing that nothing really can replace the wounds left
So so many years after my beautiful mother's death....